My mom gave up her battle with cancer Wednesday May 27th and went home to God. A part of me is overjoyed that her pain and suffering is over and she’s in heaven now with my Dad, but in one space of a second I not only lost my Mom but I lost my best friend.

Yesterday at the visitation people kept coming up to me and saying it doesn’t seem possible, she was such a tough lady, I never thought she would go. My sister-in-law told me that on Tuesday when I was out of the room, she had told Ilene that she was tired and just wanted to go home and did Ilene think I would mind if she just gave up and went. Ilene told her I would understand and deep down I do and I’m really glad she didn’t ask me, cause I’m not sure I would have been strong enough to tell her to go.

At the funeral home everyone kept standing around and looking at her and I could see her in mind raising up and telling everyone to quit staring that she was trying rest. Someone told me that they had never really met my mom and I told them that they had really missed out and it was so true.

I used to see and hear about what other mothers were doing and how they were choosing to raise their children and every time I would go to mom and I would hug her and thank her for being my mom. I would see a commercial on tv for some fancy new baby thing that a mother just can’t live without and I would tease my mom that I was lucky I lived since she never had any of that fancy stuff.

She will be forever missed and never forgotten. I know she is now watching over me as she has always watched over me.

I love you Mom.